Second Class

Day 2: ** today was my actual second day of the challenge. I had posts stockpiled so that there would be a couple to read at once.**

So, today was not an easy day for me to go. All morning and most of the day I was psyched for this class. Wishing the day away, hoping for class. About an hour before class I received some news, not bad, not good, but enough to make me think I might not want to do this.

That is a tough thing to come against when you have made a decision to not let anything get in the way of a personal challenge. So, I went to class.

Ok, so, the 26 postures are getting easier for me. It is a practice and I'm far from perfect, but I feel as though I am good at this. I feel as though I am a strong bikram student. I get complimented on my form which inspires me to try harder. Today, in class I tried to take mental note of my physical form in every moment. I found that helpful in getting past my initial hesitation tonight.

Really, this blog should be about my post bikram experience tonight. The sweat was not yet washed off when I had my first negative emotion. I generally feel a certain comradery with my fellow yogi's especially post workout. It was slightly different tonight though, and all the negativity was focused toward one girl in particular, who happened to be gross, by the way. I can't help but wonder if even though I was able to put aside my source of anxiety for 90 minutes and focus on me, focus on my poses, and push myself if the stress will just be waiting for me on the other end.

I am doing this challenge in large part to learn how to cope with negative emotions. THey don't come often, but when they do, they hit me like a rock. While continuing to improve my yoga practice, I'm thinking I must also take steps to improve myeslf outside of the studio.

There will be more happy posts, but I'm glad this one has a slightly sadder tone because that was my goal. To have an accurate account of the whole experience. It is a WHOLE experience.